A Rules Girl

Now that I am less than a week away from starting Phase 2 of my weight loss. I need to figure out what rules to add. 

My current rules are:

1. Go to the gym 4 - 5 times a week.

2. Only buying a new garment when I have to rid of one because it doesn't fit anymore.

3. Only eating ice cream and fried foods once a week.

4. Drinking 2 glasses a milk a day.

I have excelled at all of them but the milk one. I generally had one, but I find it hard to drink two. 

I haven't quite decided what new rules I am going to add.  I was thinking about adding drinking the RDA of water. Other than that I'm not quite sure, but I am open to suggestions.

In other news, I have survived Xmas and all of the goodies associated with it.  As I have mentioned, while maintaining I can go two pounds above 261 and two pounds below. In preparation for the holiday, I cheated and got to 257. I was a bit surprised since I was sick and didn't go to the gym for four days before December 23rd. I think my metabolism is running hot. It was nice to indulge and I was a bit afraid of getting on the scale this morning, but I didn't end up needing the 2 extra pounds. I would've stayed in "the zone" anyway. 

Regardless, I plan on enjoying my remaining days of maintaining.

Let's talk numbers

I thought I would share actual pounds I'm losing.I feel like I've been skirting the issue, and it's really just silly.

Over a year ago I re-joined the gym when I hit 299. I did not want to get over 300 pounds. In August when I got serious about it I was at 289. Losing fucking 10 pounds a year was not going to get me where I wanted to be. So I started my current regimen and lost 10% (or 2 stone as I like to think about it) and am now maintaining at 261.

My final goal is 150 - so eight more stone to go... or 4 more 10%'s. 

 

BMI

So I just calculated my new Body Mass Index and I am no longer Morbidly Obese. 

Drum roll, please......

I am now Extremely Obese

It doesn't really sound better, does it? 

The Deadline

So yesterday was my deadline for losing the first 10%. I've known for last two weeks that it was no longer a matter at hitting my goal but, how much I was going to miss it by.

Now the numbers are in:

One Pound! One lousy fucking pound. I missed my goal by one measly stupid little pound. I am so angry at myself (but also proud) but also angry (but also proud). 

So now the name of the game is maintain. I decided that when I hit the deadline, I would maintain that weight for month. I didn't plan it this way, but I'm glad I don't have to try and lose in December.  It's probably for the best.

Of course weight fluctuates a bit, so I am not allowed to gain or lose more than two pounds.

Then come January 1st, the next 10% is coming off. Even though I could not be more trite in starting a weight loss regimen on New Year's Day. Forgive me, it is a coincidence.

Did I mention... one pound? Sheesh.

 

Convincing myself

This morning I made plans to go to the gym tonight. I packed my gym clothes, picked out a new gym book, and put it all in the trunk of my car. But when I got off work 14 hours later, I did not want to go to the gym. I wanted to go home. I really did not want to drag my sorry ass to the gym. So I started to try and convince myself. I gave myself the whole, "You never regret going to the gym, but you always regret not going". And, "You have to lose 13 pounds in a month to hit your goal".  And, "Go while you have the opportunity, you may not get a chance tomorrow". 

I went to the gym and do you want to know the argument that finally worked on me?

I had packed my Vote Obama shirt and I thought to myself, "This will be the last time I can wear it and still be relevant." 

That's what did it. What does that say about me and my commitment to working out?

Here's me in my shirt:

Music and the Wall

Let me just clear up right now that this is not a post about working out with Pink Floyd.

It's amazing the effect the music can have on when I hit the wall during my workout. So here are my Top Ten songs that I go to when I'm ready to quit to energize and inspire me.

1. Whipped into Shape Legally Blonde - The Musical
   
2. All Revved Up with No Place to Go Meatloaf
   
3. It's Raining Men Geri Halliwell 
   
4. Blame it on the Devil Frank Morey
   
5. You Can't Stop the Beat Hairspray - The Musical
   
6. Mickey Toni Basil
   
7. Rock this Town Brian Setzer Orchestra
8. Walkin' on the Sun Smashmouth
9. Love Shack The B-52's
10. Dani California The Red Hot Chili Peppers

And I cannot neglect to mention the 5 best songs to walk to:

1. Sunday in New York Bobby Darin
   
2. French Poodle Sam Butera
   
3. C Jam Blues Duke Ellington
   
4. Stayin' Alive The Bee Gees
   
5. Come on Eileen Dexy's Midnight Runners
   

That is my opinion, I would welcome other suggestions.

Mixed Messages

I was expecting to have a Very Bad Day today, since I was bad last night; but it was a Good Day. But now I am stumped because I was expecting to use the Very Bad Day to keep me on track next time I am tempted by brownies and alcohol. It is even more frustrating the times I have a Bad Day after I spent the preceding day being responsible.

My body is sending me mixed messages and I am so dammed confused.

(But I am glad I had a Good Day)

Milestones

I try to keep my thoughts just on my 10% goal, (I have to lose 16 more pounds by Dec 1st), but I can't help but look forward to some other milestones. And since this is a Good Day, I'll share some of them with you:

• Buying my first garment that's not a plus size
  
• Changing from the 200's to the 100's
  
• Fitting comfortably in a airplane seat
  
• Recognizing my reflection
  

And the milestone I've already hit - buying a new pair of jeans and throwing another pair away.

So I'm feeling generally optimistic today. It seems like 16 teeny-tiny pounds instead of 16 goddamn massive pounds. 

Unexpected Side Effects

The most unexpected side effect of exercising is all of the excess energy.  It like freaking... excuse me.. fucking meth. Not like fucking meth, but being on fucking meth. 

I have so much energy I can hardly keep it all inside, so I spend all of my time cleaning.  However, I don't spend it going to get Anna when I can nag Amy to do it instead. (Take that, Amy!)

I don't want to sound like I am complaining, but it is just surprising.  

P.S. The best pre-workout food is an apple and a glass of milk.  It's just the right amount of filling. Pass it on...

The Gym

Why I like working out at the gym:

1. I get out of the house and away from distractions.
   
2. The variety of equipment
   
3. Can work out anytime 
   
4. Walk there and back is a perfect warm-up/cool down
   
5. The pool
6. The hot tub

Why I don't like the gym:

1. Some people don't wipe down the equipment
   
2. Obnoxious people in the pool while trying to swim laps
   
3. People on cell phones
   
4. People who monopolize equipment
   

I think I just may not like people.

Memories

I was thinking the other day that I have always felt fat - but upon further reflection I realized that I remembered the first time I felt fat.  My mom was dressing Jen and I up for something and she tried to put her shirt (Jen's - not my mom's) on me and it wouldn't go over my head. And I felt like I was too big. 

I remembered my mom taking pictured of us after we were dressed, so I raided mom's albums the other day and I found the picture from the momentous day.  Here is is:

How fucked up is that?

 

The System

As promised, here is the system I am following: Burn more calories than I consume.

How do I plan to do that, you ask?

Well since my long term goal is to lose 1/2 my body weight - it seems like an insurmountable obstacle. So I am going to lose it 10% at a time.  And I have to lose the first 10% by December 1st - than I have to maintain that through December.  (I am already 1/3 there - fuck yeah!)

So I have some rules:

Long term:

• I have to go to the gym 4-5 times a week
• I can't buy a piece of clothing unless I throw away one that I have outgrown (ingrown?)

This 10%:

• Ice cream and fried food only once a week
  
• Drink 2 glasses of milk a day

That's about it - so far it is working well, so I have high hopes.

Introduction

I decided to start a blog so I can chronicle my "weight-loss journey". I'm hoping to use the fact that if I quit I will lose face - and I hate to lose face; so it's an extra incentive for me.

This is what I look like now and I want to change.

So I have a system I am using - which I will post later - So far it is working well.  In fact, today was "a good day".  That, of course, means I have lost weight.

And since I choose to warn people that I may have adult content on my sight, here goes...fuck fuckity fuck fuck.